Celebrating 121 Followers Part 2!

Before continuing this, I’d like to say that some of my background won’t be here due to privacy. With that out the way, let us continue.

Most people just see the wheelchair, it is worse now, but as a teen, when I went to the mall, people were idiots. Say I was in a line in a store or at the food court, they’d cut in front of me. My dad saw this once and said next time, nudge the ankles, so when they did, my chair was turned on & BAM! They’d be like, “Oh, didn’t see you, sorry…”

“Sorry my ass! You saw me, move bitch!” I’ll never know why people can never use sense, you know? Had to bump people like that to get points across and yeah it worked, but hated it. Like some teens, the mall was visited more than it should’ve been, it was a place to relax for me.

Alright, most readers know I studied martial arts, but the reason wasn’t explained. Growing up, both mom and dad taught me to be independent, teaching me to use the microwave etc. Well, the teachers at the high school ripped my self esteem to shreds, making fun of my speech slur, not allowing me to go take a leak & my fav? The speech therapist told me I need more god in my life, which after the third time, I fired back, “There’s a law separating church & state, look it up!”

Mom & I went to every martial arts studio in the area and all just saw the disability, but one guy blew my mind. The first lesson with him, I need to say I didn’t expect too much, but after evaluating me, he sat in a chair and reworked a couple moves from my point of view then worked on them with me. No other instructor tried doing that approach, they’d rather be by the book closed minded people. With Bill, Hakido rebuilt me backup and I made it through the ranks quickly, taking a few of his hairs while taking him down and flipping him! 🙂

My training lasted two or three years to my red belt with a stripe, then he had to stop teaching students. I did earn my black belt, but the lady I trained under was a flake. She said I could begin at the red striped belt & wanted to view a video of my last test. We gave it to her, she viewed it, but told me to forgot his teachings, the moves look choreographed. Um, what he had me doing WAS NOT choreographed! Even though I received my black belt under her, I never thought of her as my master, Bill will always be my mentor.

In 2002/03, the house mom bought was signed to me after she had to go into a home Though I pretty much took trash out, bought/cooked food on my George Foreman grill & did everything myself, some of the neighbors took it on themselves to come by to tell me I had no right to be in that house alone. I can’t take care of myself or it. WHAT? I take trash to the curb, took cans/bottles back & my nephew or my sister’s friend mowed weekly, so where is the dang fault here? Okay, the house needed TLC, I was getting to that. The bastard came to bitch about the house so much that I started carrying my wooden fighting stick.

But then here’s my screw up & it damn near made me kill myself. I let a couple roommates move in. The first damn lady pretty much was a flack, saying fate told her to be there. She didn’t let me do what I did, (trash etc.), but her “friend” was the real threat! The flake told me her friend and her man needed to move now and could they move in? I wasn’t too thrilled with that, it smelled, but they triple tagged me, begging to let em move in. I caved, but read on.

Not to offend readers, but her friend had mental issues. First night I was in my room thinking about where to put my computer desk, & I hear her friend tell me, “I know you’re listening to me going to the bathroom!” I WASN’T doing anything of the sort, it got worse though.

After the first woman moved out due to her “friend” the two stayed, breaking the toilet. If I was online, talking to people or doing anything, she’d accuse me of hacking their PCs, she was hacking all of ours. She reported me to yahoo, saying I was doing something and had my account shutdown! I NEVER did anything like that. If I went to an anime screening, five seconds after I get there, cell would ring, “When are you coming home? Your puppy needs to go out.”

She worked me to the point I called my sister & told her to tell mom I loved her then went to get my Tanto, (was going to kill myself). As I had it out though, one of my creations from my book stopped me and though it took a month of me moving in with my sis, the psychos were evicted. I know it sounds like I’m odd for saying Blackrose set me straight, but I’m sticking to it.

After moving back in, I lived there for awhile until neighbors and other forces had me move again, though the apt. complex was nice. Everything was next door, pizza place, my bank everything! There was a 8-10 mile bike path through woods I drove day after day that came to the park! One fourth of July, the guy who worked on my old chair invited me to that park with his family to watch fireworks. So we meet up and I have a few coolers, and on the way home, he says, “You’re fish tailing, man.”

Me being buzzed, I answered, “Am not, I’m okay, dude.” Kept weaving my ass off, but that was a damn good sleep, (surprised I got myself in bed that night). 😛

Now, the reason I remain single. I tried asking women out, but I’d freeze. The first woman I tried asking out worked at the mall’s record store where I’d buy anime from. I had to work up the courage for three months to attempt it, but she was a bust. A few years ago I reconnected with a classmate of mine from elementary school, but after listening to her talk about her dad issues, not to mention the part where she told me she doesn’t want/need anyone, her number was dropped fast! Someone told me I should date someone in a wheelchair. Well she is in one and the same issues can hit anyone.

Met a few ladies through messenger, which I know, bad move! Won’t get long winded here, but the last one pissed me off. We’d talk & everything would be good, but she’d go on her other screen names, pm me, talk to me for days. She’d then get on her main id, telling me I cheated on her.

To this day, the focus is on me, my writing and gaming. I have zero time for dating games people might pull. Does that sound like a bad way to put it? Anyway, hope these two posts helped you get to know Shadowlight better.


Two Topics For Two Days

While responding to a followers blog post on the process how manga is translated into English, two topics popped into my head, (shout out goes to Anime Girls NYC). 🙂 If it wasn’t for her topic, these would have been forgotten and left by the road. Before starting, let me state that the first topic is personal and a bit of a warning for people, but leads into tomorrow’s topic.


By now about everyone who follows me here and Facebook knows I have Cerebral Palsy, I’ve had it since birth, leaving me one handed and chair bound, but the brain works great. 🙂 For all of my life there were things to overcome, some anger etc., but anything I wanted to do, my parents found a way to get me to said goal. Earning my black belt, competing in weapons demonstrations, horseback riding, traveling around the country as part of a sports team, I did it!


I’ve always adapted to do things one handed, thanks to my parents. Even later, their guidance helps me do things I wanna do. A few years ago, someone claiming to be a doctor saw one of my videos demoing how I played the PS3 one handed messaged me and wanted to ask questions. First time I answered him as well as possible, but in time, his questions got odd, meaning he’d repeat them, until I asked what this was about.


This answer made the rest of my red flags fly. He claimed to be working for a hospital in Canada, researching a treatment for C.P. to help people with it walk and have more control. Now though I haven’t read up on things lately, if there WAS a treatment, I would’ve heard about it. The conversion lasted over a few months of emails, even someone claiming to be his brother that had Cerebral Palsy emailed me several times.


Got to a point where I told him to send me the info to look over for myself, but after that, that was it, he never replied. His “brother” never emailed, so it is a very good guess that doc was scamming me.


What are your thoughts? I’d love to here your take about this.

Return Of The Show I Dislike



Well some of you may not agree with me about this topic, but there is one show I get ill over and thanks to my nephew, his oldest will not stop talking about it. The show on topic today is the original Power Rangers! When this show first aired, I was a Purple w/stripe, Blue Belt? in Hapkido & I viewed the show as bad for the martial arts. At the time, my nephew was training under me and every bloody time that show came on, he’d want me to teach him to fight like them.


Told him that the training is for protection and as a last resort, but no matter what I said, he’d still repeat, “teach me like them.” It came down to me asking my instructor for guidance, but when what he suggested didn’t pan out, I took a step back from training the nephew. Can’t tell ya how much of a failure I felt like. Even Bill, my instructor had kids who got into the art due to that show.To me, Power Rangers helped, but gave the martial arts a bad name. Now, my nephew has introduced his 4 year old to the original show and that’s all he talks about!


I may show the kid a few moves when he gets older, but if he does the same thing his father did, I’m stopping!


What are your thoughts, if you were alive back then?


Either the holiday did it or the heat, but this slipped my mind. A few new people follow this blog and it slid past me to welcome them. So without further delay, please help me welcome: Karandi of 100wordanime, Dominic Cuthbert of little anime blog & all other new faces here. As some of you may have read, I game on the PC, I’m a writer of sorts and I LOVE Anime!


What you’ll find in this blog is a mixed bag of anime, writing, gaming, martial arts and many more topics. I’d like the blog to be interactive, so please if you like a topic, feel free to comment etc. If you have a question, I’ll be happy to answer them. Please feel welcome! 🙂

An Introduction

Since my blog has been gaining readers, I thought it’d be good to reintroduce myself & give background on what posts you’ll find here.


Hello, my name’s Shadowlight and I have a disability, leaving me in a wheelchair, but don’t let that fool you. I’ve learned martial arts and hold a black belt in Hapkido and know swordsmanship. The hats I wear are many, including a die hard Otaku, (love Anime and manga). 😛 For the last few years, the vampire novel, I’ve been writing has been my pet project, but I’ve been working on other series as well.


Asuka D'Cara

(One of the main characters children, Asuka D’cara.)


You’ll find posts about writing here, alone with anime topics, reviews and posts on my other hobbies, PC gaming and R/C cars. I hope you find the topics enjoyable and feel free to engage conversation or feedback, I welcome interaction! 🙂

State Of Things 2

For the past few days, I’ve felt eh-ish, like I wanna get on my stories or here and write, but something side tracks me. Anyway, what could be the last writing tip I give will be posted soon, (if not tomorrow, by the weekend). Somethings were added to Deadra’s story, Darkest Pleasures last night, so that’s good! Not sure if it is up to my usual grade of work, wanna add more before I let eyes proof it.


Today, I did something to my You Tube channel I’ve been meaning to do for a while now. What is that, you ask? I added clip art & kinda hinted at the format changes that I had in mind, (PC game play, R/C Truck/Car running/showoff vids and sword videos)! 🙂 Speaking of R/C. I called the hobby shop today and my truck is completely DONE! 🙂 Talking new body, bigger tires, blue upgraded parts AND brushless system! Heh, me wonder if I can handle the speed now! Ah, in April I’ll find out. 🙂


Back to the You Tube channel. For those who weren’t aware that I had one, I do. Started it in 2010 as a way to showcase how I play PS3 games for a now defunked blog and people liked it, so it was added too. But in time, games that I tried playing became to button happy. What’s worse, killing my console days were the players on PSN. Aside from some nice people, (who were and are still my friends), others were assholes to me. So rather than stress on PSN, I moved to PC gaming & I’m less stressed! 🙂 Oh the PS3’s still used, as a dvd/blue ray player.

One Of My Goals For 2015 Is….

Like some of us, setting goals for the coming year, but then not following through on them is something I’m known for. Last year around this time, I’ve started doing my sword Kata again, as a form of exercise. And while I have stuck to it, more or less, lately, I;m catching myself slacking off.  That or the two I live with don’t go to bed early enough, so I can wheel out to the living room to do the Kata.

For those new to this blog, let me do a little introduction, before going on. I’m in a wheelchair with Cerebral Palsy, but other then being one handed, I play video games well, I’ve had a good teacher in martial arts, who trained me in Hapkido, (a Korean art). And he trained me in the sword Kata. Plus, I’m a huge Anime fan!

When my instructor first started training me in the Samurai Sword, he handed me a wooden sword, trying to see if I could handle it. At the time, (mid 90s), my arm strength wasn’t that well off. It is true that before getting my electric wheelchairs, I’ve pushed myself everywhere, but that didn’t get me ready for the weight of the wooden Katana.

He wasn’t these by the book “one size fits all” kinda instructors, he cared about teaching me. How did we tackle the sword Kata? He went out of his way, ordering an aluminum Wakizashi, (a short Japanese sword), giving it to me. Using it for the Kata felt natural, the weight wasn’t an issue at all, which I liked, because the strain on my arm was next to nothing.

Years later, after I’ve gotten my Black Belt and Bill had to stop teaching, for personal reasons, I continued practicing martial arts and the sword Kata, with the Wakizashi. In my mind, something lit a fire, making me want to get to a point where I could handle a full Katana one handed. So, I asked my new sword instructor if he would help, but of course, he was all negative about it, causing me to lose interest in the pursuit.

Over the years, the thought has crossed my mind to train myself to use a full sized sword & I think 2015 might be the year for that goal. Sure, it won’t be easy, it’ll mean putting in work, but I WILL get to a point where I can handle it!