An End To The Wheelchair War!

This great news came down the pipeline two Mondays ago! I’ve reported that insurance would only pay three grand of the forty six grand, leaving me to pay the difference. Mom & dad MUST be looking out for me because the company I’m going through to get it is covering the balance!


Yep, I don’t need to pay a thing! ๐Ÿ™‚ If you readers could’ve seen my face when I found out! As of now the chair is on order and hopefully will get here when the warm weather comes!


Personal Blog For March 1st 2018

For those who are new to my bloggy here, I usually do a personal post at the start of each month as a way of cleansing my mind and let you into my thoughts. It also lets you know what’s coming etc. So without further words, let me begin!

It needs to be put out there that the wheelchair issue has stressed me out & when I took steps to resolve it myself, I got my head cut off. I called my sister who’s my Power of Attorney and her answer is to get me back on Medicaid to pickup the slack of what Medicare won’t cover, but she fails to see the state has denied me 4 other times to get state insurance, so I see no point in retrying. Even if granted, it might take awhile to kick in.

There is Easter Seals that help people like me get things such as wheelchairs & I tried telling her that yesterday, but trying to get points across with her can’t be done!




In other, more happier news, I can now get back into Tekken 7 if I want, which the rust shows on me badly! Tried a few online matches and my butt was beaten, slaughtered and destroyed, so two friendly matches with a โ€œfriendโ€ were tried. Check below, but in the matches, he acted as if they were a tournament, try harding me! Yes, the game’s competitive, I get it, but crap man…

(You may need to tweak you tube’s settings to get the videos to play all of the way through). Would you readers like to see more?



As for Anime stuff. I do plan on a post on RWRBY, (Hope that’s right) among other anime related goodness! ๐Ÿ™‚ Might take a night to binge Trigun, because a review was promised for a year?

Lastly: Stories will still be posted here, but my clause will be put up, due to a fantasy blogger linking to the Sailor Moon crossover without asking. Hopefully that will stop that.

Why I Don’t Fish Anymore

Before moving to the city sometime in the mid 80s, I grew up on a farm in the country. It wasn’t a big one, but you couldn’t beat the open land we had with a corn field, a large field to fly kites in, the whole nine! ^_^ We also had a pond with Bass, Sunfish & Bluegil that we use to fish every chance we had. I use to love fishing, next to kite flying, that was my favorite thing.

Might catch backlash from family if they read this on Facebook, but ah well. Something happen to me that traumatized me to the point that makes me flip if someone even hangs a fish in my face, having me dislike fishing. Before continuing, I want it known that I loved my parents when they were living and miss em now, & I’m not trying to speak ill of them in death.

My mom took me down to the pond one day after she got a lil tipsy, locked my brakes on my manual chair and put a fishing pole in my hand. Now, it needs to be said the brakes were shit, they were very loose and I told her that, but she insisted that I was fine, just fish. Well, next thing I knew was heading in the water with her coming after me. Some weeks later, dad did the same, this time though I fell in with a lawn chair.

After those two accidents, fishing was odd for me? Some in my family may laugh at me for my reason, but can anyone blame me?

Personal Blog For Feb.1st 2018

There’s a lot to cover in this month’s personal blog, so let us start with the elephant in the room, no news on my claim for the new chair. For the new readers who just followed me, & those who have been away, I’ll be brief. I’m way overdue for a new wheelchair, like three years? A script for one was FINALLY written and passed to me last year with a new chair picked out that same month. Easy right? Nope! I then had to wait for the therapist and the guy that I gotta get it through to communicate, taking weeks of phone tag!

Last week, my doctor asked if I talked to the guy and to be honest, I gave up because he rarely returns calls. Wish Mike was still in the game, I knew he got shit done! Guess on the upside, my tilt function works on this chair again, though I wanna new chair.



Moving on! Thank you to all who supported me after the post about our female pit bull passing, it helped so much. Before she passed, her son use to try attacking me, biting my foot once, which got him kicked off, but now that she’s no longer here, he’s bad. A week after, he didn’t do nothing, just looked at me chill like, then one day I was coming out for coffee, he went into my room, came out, looked at me and went Cojoe on my ass! I try to be cool with him and all, but…. Last week, had my door open, the dog came in friendly and left then came by the door, growling at me. I lost my temper and chased his ass, blocking him in a corner.

Not sure WTF it is with him, a gene, a male thing or what, but there are times I wish I could hold him down and run over him a bit! I don’t wanna have people thinking that I abuse dogs, I don’t, I just do nothing to the dog, yet he wants my head! Yes, it might be the wheelchair, & if so, there’s zero I can do about it.

Writing! As stated earlier, my muses have been on me about finishing older stories, which I’m dedicating some weeks this month to do, that’s part of my reason not being on Facebook. I’m going to attempt finishing the book chapter this month so I can start the next chapter. If all goes as planned, the book will be half done, yay! ๐Ÿ™‚

I haven’t posted about this, but one of my PC game pads, (the one I need for Tekken) crapped on me. Don’t buy the HORI Fighting Commander controllers, they die without warning. I’ve found an older version of controller I used on SC5, so I’ll order it soon & hope it works! Also buying another Logitech pad as a backup.

Celebrating 121 Followers Part 2!

Before continuing this, I’d like to say that some of my background won’t be here due to privacy. With that out the way, let us continue.

Most people just see the wheelchair, it is worse now, but as a teen, when I went to the mall, people were idiots. Say I was in a line in a store or at the food court, they’d cut in front of me. My dad saw this once and said next time, nudge the ankles, so when they did, my chair was turned on & BAM! They’d be like, โ€œOh, didn’t see you, sorry…โ€

โ€œSorry my ass! You saw me, move bitch!โ€ I’ll never know why people can never use sense, you know? Had to bump people like that to get points across and yeah it worked, but hated it. Like some teens, the mall was visited more than it should’ve been, it was a place to relax for me.

Alright, most readers know I studied martial arts, but the reason wasn’t explained. Growing up, both mom and dad taught me to be independent, teaching me to use the microwave etc. Well, the teachers at the high school ripped my self esteem to shreds, making fun of my speech slur, not allowing me to go take a leak & my fav? The speech therapist told me I need more god in my life, which after the third time, I fired back, โ€œThere’s a law separating church & state, look it up!โ€

Mom & I went to every martial arts studio in the area and all just saw the disability, but one guy blew my mind. The first lesson with him, I need to say I didn’t expect too much, but after evaluating me, he sat in a chair and reworked a couple moves from my point of view then worked on them with me. No other instructor tried doing that approach, they’d rather be by the book closed minded people. With Bill, Hakido rebuilt me backup and I made it through the ranks quickly, taking a few of his hairs while taking him down and flipping him! ๐Ÿ™‚

My training lasted two or three years to my red belt with a stripe, then he had to stop teaching students. I did earn my black belt, but the lady I trained under was a flake. She said I could begin at the red striped belt & wanted to view a video of my last test. We gave it to her, she viewed it, but told me to forgot his teachings, the moves look choreographed. Um, what he had me doing WAS NOT choreographed! Even though I received my black belt under her, I never thought of her as my master, Bill will always be my mentor.

In 2002/03, the house mom bought was signed to me after she had to go into a home Though I pretty much took trash out, bought/cooked food on my George Foreman grill & did everything myself, some of the neighbors took it on themselves to come by to tell me I had no right to be in that house alone. I can’t take care of myself or it. WHAT? I take trash to the curb, took cans/bottles back & my nephew or my sister’s friend mowed weekly, so where is the dang fault here? Okay, the house needed TLC, I was getting to that. The bastard came to bitch about the house so much that I started carrying my wooden fighting stick.

But then here’s my screw up & it damn near made me kill myself. I let a couple roommates move in. The first damn lady pretty much was a flack, saying fate told her to be there. She didn’t let me do what I did, (trash etc.), but her โ€œfriendโ€ was the real threat! The flake told me her friend and her man needed to move now and could they move in? I wasn’t too thrilled with that, it smelled, but they triple tagged me, begging to let em move in. I caved, but read on.

Not to offend readers, but her friend had mental issues. First night I was in my room thinking about where to put my computer desk, & I hear her friend tell me, โ€œI know you’re listening to me going to the bathroom!โ€ I WASN’T doing anything of the sort, it got worse though.

After the first woman moved out due to her โ€œfriendโ€ the two stayed, breaking the toilet. If I was online, talking to people or doing anything, she’d accuse me of hacking their PCs, she was hacking all of ours. She reported me to yahoo, saying I was doing something and had my account shutdown! I NEVER did anything like that. If I went to an anime screening, five seconds after I get there, cell would ring, โ€œWhen are you coming home? Your puppy needs to go out.โ€

She worked me to the point I called my sister & told her to tell mom I loved her then went to get my Tanto, (was going to kill myself). As I had it out though, one of my creations from my book stopped me and though it took a month of me moving in with my sis, the psychos were evicted. I know it sounds like I’m odd for saying Blackrose set me straight, but I’m sticking to it.

After moving back in, I lived there for awhile until neighbors and other forces had me move again, though the apt. complex was nice. Everything was next door, pizza place, my bank everything! There was a 8-10 mile bike path through woods I drove day after day that came to the park! One fourth of July, the guy who worked on my old chair invited me to that park with his family to watch fireworks. So we meet up and I have a few coolers, and on the way home, he says, โ€œYou’re fish tailing, man.โ€

Me being buzzed, I answered, โ€œAm not, I’m okay, dude.โ€ Kept weaving my ass off, but that was a damn good sleep, (surprised I got myself in bed that night). ๐Ÿ˜›

Now, the reason I remain single. I tried asking women out, but I’d freeze. The first woman I tried asking out worked at the mall’s record store where I’d buy anime from. I had to work up the courage for three months to attempt it, but she was a bust. A few years ago I reconnected with a classmate of mine from elementary school, but after listening to her talk about her dad issues, not to mention the part where she told me she doesn’t want/need anyone, her number was dropped fast! Someone told me I should date someone in a wheelchair. Well she is in one and the same issues can hit anyone.

Met a few ladies through messenger, which I know, bad move! Won’t get long winded here, but the last one pissed me off. We’d talk & everything would be good, but she’d go on her other screen names, pm me, talk to me for days. She’d then get on her main id, telling me I cheated on her.

To this day, the focus is on me, my writing and gaming. I have zero time for dating games people might pull. Does that sound like a bad way to put it? Anyway, hope these two posts helped you get to know Shadowlight better.

Personal Blog For Oct. 2017: Roller Coaster Of Emotions

First let me say sorry for the no posts in weeks on end. Planned to post an anime related topic and a few others this month, but thanks to my whacked out sleep schedule, being sick and stress on account of the wheelchair issue, days were spent just attempting to stay sane! ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Shall we start?


Doctors came out not too long ago, & might I say were decent? Seriously, usually I’d get docs that treat me like I have no mind, talking to me like I’m three years old, which can and does piss me off, but these two were cool. The nurse though tried taking blood with a huge fraking needle, drilling into me, (IT FUCKING HURT) and blew the vein, then she drew it using a butterfly needle, hurt less.


Got the script for the new chair though, so yay. ๐Ÿ™‚ That day, Mike was called to let him know the chair could be ordered, but here’s a downer. I couldn’t go through him to get it or have him fix it, something to do with Medicare I don’t understand.ย  He did refer me a friend of his & he seems cool, however, my rep for popping footrest bolts is known to him so I’m afraid! ๐Ÿ˜› Last week, he came out to show a chair and get this started.


Out of the gate, this guy saw how screwed this chair is & I feel he’ll do everything he can to get the new one asap. The new chair looks sick as shit! Its from a company I dealt with before, their chairs are like the Energizer Bunny, they keep going, going and going! It’ll be smaller than this one, sleeker is always good, it can go over small curbs, a plus and get up and go! ๐Ÿ˜› I even had a chance to pick my colors, which will be basic black with grey trim, which some who read this blog know black is my favorite.


If all goes well, without red tape holding things up, should get the new chair in three to six months, hoping for three.


Look for two others post to see what else I had going on.

Personal Blog For September 2017: I Have No Excuses….

This is a late post & I’m sorry for that. There are no excuses I can give other than being tired, caught up in trying to get thru red tape to get a wheelchair and wanting to keep to myself to write, all topics for this post. Before I start however, if any of my family reads this, this blog’s like my venting outlet & subjects are just me blowing off steam. Stop reading if you don’t like is on the menu.


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Let me start this off positively. For awhile now, whenever I write, it has transformed into much more than I’ve ever thought possible. The novel alone, I’ve described a well thought out fight scene, detailing it well, but beyond that, my erotic stories have seen the same level of detail. It feels great & I’ll show off some work soon! ๐Ÿ™‚




Alright, here’s where I get a bit snarky and probably be viewed as a jack hole, but eh. Though Tekken is still played by me on Steam, things have changed. I’ve been kicked from the group I was an officer of and wasn’t given a reason, (but I guess pointing out cheaters who macro the game reason to be kicked then)… All I gotta say is I hope the owner has fun with them.


Furthermore, quick matches aren’t played anymore due to the way the game is with patches. Before it let you see what fighter the other player uses and their wins. Now, I could be matched against some expert with 700 wins, but I wouldn’t know until it was too late. So you can call me chicken, but I like what sanity I have left. Out of the “friends” I’ve made on Steam, only two invite me to play them, sad but true.


Last topic, the wheelchair issue. Called for my insurance card and it is on the way, or so they said! Meanwhile, this pile of dog poop has gotten worse and I have no backup chair due to family destroying it, which for this family, is expected!


I’ll try blogging like I did before, sorry for the long time away.